day 2 Chemo

      I go in the next morning to have the blood clot taken care off.  They tell me that the clot can not be removed and even if they did the port wouldn't last for the whole 6 months so I need it replaced.  The last thing I  want to hear!!!  So then they tell me they will be putting a Pic line in my arm so I can finish my first round of Chemo.
      It was very traumatic to me!  I can't believe what I have faced so far in this journey.  It was very painful and just grossed me out.  They insert a wire into you vein and push it up the vein and into the heart.  He kept telling me how tiny my veins were,  not helping, then they were debating on the placement in the heart!!! Seriously people!!! I finally yelled they thought I was joking but I was freaking out.
      After the placement I went back to get the second day of Chemo.  It was much better through the pic line it.  They sent me home with the fanny pack of chemo for 22 hrs.  Nights have been the worse it makes me feel very restless and antsy and nausea and my legs ached, food tastes gross and a very high sensitivity to cold,  I have to have gloves on to take items out of the fridge, I can't have ice or eat or drink cold foods, it's uncomfortable and even painful its a trip.