I can't believe its been a whole year since my last post!

2014 was a big year I got to go to maintenance on my chemo for the summer,  It was the best summer too. I stayed with my grandma Hancock to take care of her so she didn't have to go into a home.  I am grateful that I did it was very rewarding on many levels especially since she unexpectedly passed away on the 2nd.  I miss her a lot, she had a fun sense of humor and I enjoyed every minute with her.  It was an honor talking at her funeral about how she touched our hearts and our lives.
     Marc and I started biking last summer we worked up to about 5 days a week an average of 12 miles.  My furthest was 24 miles.  I loved it so so much.  It saddens me greatly now that I can't do that, it is my hope and prayer that I can again someday. 
     My cancer has come back it is now in my lungs.  The biggest blow yet, especially after my wonderful summer.  It saddens me the most that I may not be able to do that again.   Im going to try my hardest.  I was told yesterday that there was no end in sight and chemo will be ongoing.  I have to have Hope, Faith, Courage, and be strong.  Thank goodness I have My Family, my friends, and my Marc.  Marc has been so good for me he has brought such joy and support and he's so positive.  He has made me so happy in such a hard time of my life.  He is patient, he takes me to all of my doctor appts, he sits with me for hours during chemo,  He spent almost the whole month of October in the hospital with me. I love him very much I am so blessed.

I finally feel good today! It seems like it's been such a long time since I had energy and didn't feel chemo sick.  The last couple weeks have been hard to say the least.  I know what the difference is, the gym.  Marc and I have gone to the gym this week, even when I didn't feel like it.  I know what I need to do.  NO sugar and exercise. Oh ya and no freaking coke zero,  damn I still miss my coke zero a lot!!  I can't  wait until spring when we can walk outside.  I think I will even start biking.  I have lost 60 lbs since all of my weight gain from the first rounds of chemo and all the steroids.  It has been hard but I am not ever giving up!!!!
I have to wait to get the complete results from my PET scan until my next treatment, a week from tomorrow.

January 2014 It's a New Year

My first attempt at a pallet knife.  It's been a long time since I posted any thing on this blog. A lot has happened since the last post.   My cancer was only in remission for 8 month.  It returned in my Liver I had the left lobe of my liver removed last AUG.  after getting my heart punctured during a biopsy on the mass in my liver,  its a miracle I survived that...I figure God didn't spare my life from that just to have me lose my battle to cancer after long suffering, so I take comfort in that.  They didn't get it all, there was cancer left in the margin so I have been on maintenance chemo every 2 weeks ever since.  It has been harder than you can believe, but I have discovered I am stronger than I believe also.  Last year was the hardest year of my life, yet the best year of my life.  I have so much to be grateful for.  I will try to update my blog on a weekly basis from now on.  I don't know if anyone will read this but I think it will good for me to write and journal my life my successes my failures my beautiful life! Why not?

Colon Cancer is in remission

I finished my chemo Aug 10th yeah!!! Aug 15th I got my blood drawn for the cancer markers, and on the 29th I had a CAT scan to make sure the cancer had not spread. 

I got a call from Dr. Hansen's office telling me I needed to see my gynecologist cuz the CAT scan showed a cyst on my ovary.  Ugh here we go again!  So I figure they will put me on birth control and I need a pap smear and mammogram anyway so I make an appt.  and I go to doctor Kammayer On Sept. 6th.

Well it turns out it's not a cyst in my ovary its a mass growing on the outside of my uterus and ovary.  It had shown up in the original CAT scan in January but they had not told me about it or done anything about it,  but it had grown over a cm since Jan. and it was very concerning to the doc. so he referred me to a gyno-oncologist in Salt Lake.  I go to him on Tues. Oct. 4th.  I am pretty much in the dark on any of the details and I don't really know what to expect.  I am pretty sure I will be having surgery to remove it, but I don't know the extent of the surgery or anything.  I just hope and pray it is NOT cancer!!!!

It's been way too long!!!

  Today is Sunday Aug.6th, Tomorrow is my last treatment.  It has been a long, hard battle and I wish it was over.  The last couple treatments have been hell.  They have made me so so sick and tired and my body hasn't been able to bounce back very well.  My feet are numb, my finger tips are numb.  My legs are weak and my body is just tired.  My hair is thinner and crazy! I can't do a thing with it!.  I have had hot flashes non stop for the last week.  They didn't tell me that the chemo stops the production of hormones, and throws you straight into menopause!!! No easing in just full on!!!  No fun!!!
    After I am done with the chemo I will get a CAT scan and chest X-ray and blood work to make sure we kicked this in the butt.  I will try to update my blog more often since I will soon start feeling better. :)

more complications....

     So now I am developing an allergic reaction to one of my chemo meds!!! its actually a pretty mean drug, but it is vital to my treatment, it amplifies the actual chemo drug and makes it work better.  It has lots of side effects like I am very sensitive to cold,  can't eat or drink anything cold, it is very uncomfortable, and if I touch cold my hands get pins and needles that sometimes take hours to go away. 
     Any way last treatment a couple days after, my throat closed off, and I was having difficulty swallowing and I noticed my hands were red.   both signs of allergic reaction.... I get the drug on my first day of treatment and I say to Tony look my hands are turning red again, and itching, my lips and tongue was tingling also,  Tony tells me to tell the nurse, I think its no big deal, but Tony tells her and it turns out its kinda a big deal.  oops Lol...  they gave me 2 doses of benidryl and more steroids and who knows what else.  Next treatment they have to slow down the drip and watch me closely,  she said I will now be there at least 2 or 3 hrs longer on the first days!!! I am already there 6 hrs!!! but I could have a severe reaction if not watched closely.
     I am getting used to having nothing go smoothly that has to do with this whole situation.