Surgery

     I was so scared but strangely calm.  I had never had any kind of surgery.  My first 2 IVs were the week before.  I stayed with Tony that night and we tried to encourage and calm each other.  Tony had lost his dad to a heart attack, his mom to breast cancer, his grandma to colon cancer,and we had lost my grandpa Hancock to lung cancer, and my uncle David to pancreatic cancer.  My mom is a breast cancer survivor.  We had seen what cancer can do.  We both just wanted it out of me.
     We report to the surgery floor they take me back to fill out paperwork.  I come back out and half of the waiting area was there for me.  I gave lots of hugs and told everyone how much I love them. I feel calm and strong.  They call me back.  My mom and Tony can go with me. Carrie gets to come back for a little bit too.  They have me change, do the IV and the surgeon comes and talks to me briefly,  he tells me my left ovary looks suspicious and enlarged so he might have to remove it too.  I was caught of guard with that news too!! again no symptoms and no idea I had issues with my ovaries!!! I worry there is cancer in the ovary too.  The aneth...pain doctor,  I am not even going to try to spell it!! came and talked to me.  They talked me into an epider.al, later I would regret that choice.  and he wheeled me into surgery room. I was scared, my glasses were off so I could not see anything, I was glad about that.  I hold the nurses hand tightly as he gives me the spinal block.  They ask me to lie back and that is my last memory until I wake up gasping for air.  I cant breath,, I can't see I have never felt so sick in my life.  They couldn't get me to wake up or to breath, they had to bag me again.  I was scared and confused.