Surrounded with Love

     Tony called my parents my mom was not home but my dad rushed to the clinic.  He got a hold of my mom and she called Carrie my baby sister who had the horrible job of calling the family.  As I walked out to the car, numb and in shock, my dad pulled up he gave me a big hug and I melted into his arms.  Carrie called me as I was getting in the car and I started to sob.  I don't understand why I eat my fiber one bars damn it!!!!  I don't have and never have had problems with my digestion what the hell???? She told me I was going to be ok and it was ok to cry.   We headed to my grandma's house where my mom would be.  My sisters all had left work and came over too. By 5:00 that night all of my brothers and sisters, except Shane cuz his kids were sick, and Chad cuz he was out of town.  I asked my dad for a blessing we called my Uncle Rob to assist. Jodi and Rob and my cousin Robert and his wife Erin, my dear friend Shelley, Tony of course, Jana, Dana, Carrie and Q, Chris, Clint and Jen, my Grandma H and my parents.  So much Love and support.  Everyone stopped what they were doing and surrounded me with love, and it gave me so much strength.  My blessing was wonderful it told me I was not alone that I would return to health that the doctors would take good care of me and that I had a guardian angel watching over me and guiding my doctors.  After the blessing I was like ok what are we doing here everything is going to be good. 
     I was to meet with the surgeon the following morning, I thought for surgery, but it was just for an office visit.   He ordered a CT scan because of my age and the size of the tumor they were concerned it had either started somewhere else or had spread.  I was scheduled for the CT scan that Friday 14th. I went for the CT on Friday by now I had gone 5 days of no food only liquid diet.  I would have to wait for the results until Monday the 17th when I went for surgery.  That was hard waiting and wondering if it was in my liver too.  Thank God it was not.
     My family held a fast for me on Sunday the day before my surgery.  We ended it at Jan's home, they had a wonderful dinner, I had chicken broth and Jello... Dana thought that was so cruel!! but I was ok with that.  By now I had gone 7 days without food.  If I can do that I can do anything!!! ha ha
     My dad gave me another blessing but that was a bit of a wake up call.  It told me it was going to be rough and some complications, but I had so many people praying for me friends and family.  I was on so many prayer lists and temples and churches and so so many people praying for me.  I got so much comfort and strength from that.  My work had let all of my clients that had appts with me know and they were all praying for me.  I was seeing how blessed I am. But that blessing scared the crap out of me, it was a reality check.